Still Around
Yes invisible audience, I'm still here.
I haven't posted since Christmas Day. Tsk. Tsk. So how's '08? Not bad, pretty mixed. My mother continues her slow (stalled) recovery. I just wrote a proposal to my supervisor/preceptor for my post-grad job (fingers crossed on the salary requirements). Some real steps have been made for wedding plans. Yes, things are good.
But I'm really starting to feel my mortality. I always have, but lately it's been overwhelming. Yes, I'll only be turning 39 this year, but sometimes I feel like I've lived for centuries. So many faces have come and gone, ghosts, I call them. They're haunting me. The inevitable deaths of loved ones (hopefully far in the future) reduce me to a weeping wreck as I fall asleep. My faith is still strong, and there is great comfort there, but I still struggle with the temporal. I think of future souls, some perhaps wondering about those who walked this planet long before them. Will there be any trace of me? Or will I just be carbon. My soul will be with the Lord, but will there be some tangible legacy of my life?
Time for bed. More entries later. You know, for the ghosts......
I haven't posted since Christmas Day. Tsk. Tsk. So how's '08? Not bad, pretty mixed. My mother continues her slow (stalled) recovery. I just wrote a proposal to my supervisor/preceptor for my post-grad job (fingers crossed on the salary requirements). Some real steps have been made for wedding plans. Yes, things are good.
But I'm really starting to feel my mortality. I always have, but lately it's been overwhelming. Yes, I'll only be turning 39 this year, but sometimes I feel like I've lived for centuries. So many faces have come and gone, ghosts, I call them. They're haunting me. The inevitable deaths of loved ones (hopefully far in the future) reduce me to a weeping wreck as I fall asleep. My faith is still strong, and there is great comfort there, but I still struggle with the temporal. I think of future souls, some perhaps wondering about those who walked this planet long before them. Will there be any trace of me? Or will I just be carbon. My soul will be with the Lord, but will there be some tangible legacy of my life?
Time for bed. More entries later. You know, for the ghosts......
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